Having a sad day...

I am having a sad day. I don’t like these kinds of days because my mind goes all over the place and I start questioning everything. Although my husband reminded me of how far we have come, that very thing terrifies me because it means there is only so much more that we can do. Today, hope is far away from my mind. I find it hard to be positive which I know is the very thing I need to keep intact. I guess we all have our days right? I wish I were at home curled under a blanket… Hoping I can turn it around… Tmrw we go back to the doctor’s and Jay will freeze his specimen and I will do more blood work in preparation for another IUI. This round will be a bit tougher with Jay being away… May need to call on some of you to step in if needed.