Everything happens for a reason?

Good Morning Everyone! Today, I am optimistic. I try to maintain this attitude daily and while I am successful most of the time, I am human and have my moments. Jay got a call from Comcast and it turns out he is going to be working out of the South Burlington office and not going to CT for training for a few more weeks. Inside I feel like this could be a blessing from above… as everything really does happen for a reason. I am on day 4 letrozole and shots for this round. We go on Friday to see if there are follicles brewing. This is the first round of 7.5 not being a week behind so I pray that there is more than one which will better our odds. However, I don’t want to be greedy! It only takes one…  Guess his sperm will be saved for another day and we will get a fresh batch this round! As always, thanks for being on this journey with us!

Having a sad day...

I am having a sad day. I don’t like these kinds of days because my mind goes all over the place and I start questioning everything. Although my husband reminded me of how far we have come, that very thing terrifies me because it means there is only so much more that we can do. Today, hope is far away from my mind. I find it hard to be positive which I know is the very thing I need to keep intact. I guess we all have our days right? I wish I were at home curled under a blanket… Hoping I can turn it around… Tmrw we go back to the doctor’s and Jay will freeze his specimen and I will do more blood work in preparation for another IUI. This round will be a bit tougher with Jay being away… May need to call on some of you to step in if needed.

First IUI unsuccessful

Hello Everyone, the first IUI was unfortunately not successful. Even though the doctor's said we could freeze Jay's sperm and move forward when he is gone out of state, we are undecided if that's what we want to do or not. We are considering a mental (and physical) break for the 7 weeks he is away. Will keep you all posted as we move forward. Thanks for the continued thoughts!

IUI round 1 complete

So we went in at 8:30 sunday morning and had our first IUI. For those wondering what it is you can check this link out, its got a lot of good information: http://www.advancedfertility.com/insem.htm We were there a couple hours but the procedure itself was only like 10 minutes. Mild cramping but overall it wasn't bad at all. The hardest part for me was trying to keep my emotions in check. For some reason I was feeling really up and down. My husband was nervous as all get out for his part of the process and so I didn't want to add any extra pressure. I caught myself looking to the ceiling so I didn't eject any tears. We did get some good news leaving... we thought we would have to take a break if this doesn't work due to Jay being gone but the nurse said they can freeze his sperm so we don't have to!!! Thanks to those that called/texted to check in on us, it meant a lot!

IUI Time

Trigger shot today at 4:30 and we are scheduled for an IUI on sunday at 8:30am. For those wondering what an IUI is... its not invitro... they are taking Jays sperm, washing it and then inserting it into my uterus through a catheter. Everything will take about 3 hours. Send us good vibes!

Frequent Flyer Miles

By Friday I should be getting frequent flyer miles as it will be my third trip this week alone to Dr. C! I went today for another ultrasound after I had a follicle at Monday's appointment that was 14mm. Today it was 15mm. Not much growth but at least it is just that... GROWTH! Progress in my eyes! Need to find whatever I can and hold onto it for hope and positive thoughts! They gave me a shot in the office and I will have to do another tmrw then return on Friday to see if it has grown more! Their hope is to see it at 18mm and then I will trigger myself. Fingers crossed! As I said in my last post this is it for a couple months as Jay is going to be 4.5 hours away for 6 weeks at his new job training... I refuse to drive long distance for a piece of ass again! :)

Checking in...

I apologize for not posting after my Tuesday ultrasound. Nothing came up on the screen and it was due to my mess up! I am a bit scatter brained these days and I forgot a dose of my letrozole so I believe that is the reason. Dr. Casson put me into another round of shots and pills hoping that much like last months cycle we will have a follicle growing. We go this morning at 9:30 to see if that is in fact the case. Jay starts with Comcast in July so after today's appointment, we are taking a break for about 2 months because he will only be home Friday and Saturdays for 7 weeks and timing adds too much pressure to an already tough situation. I don't want to waste medications, money etc. I also think a little break will be good for the mind because at this point it has become quite exhausting. Thanks for hanging in there with me everyone!! Love you!